Hello again.

I had a visit from my 2 friends "Mr Anxiety" and "Mr Attack" in the night..and those boys weren't taking any prisoners I can tell you :)

Yes, last night's attack was the worst one that I have for many months...I'd forgotten how really terrifying they can be. But the good news is, as always, my 2 friends didn't suceed in snuffing me out (though, as usual, I thought they might do).

Looking back on it, its incredible that I know all of the symptoms, all of the breathing exercises, why I have the symptoms etc. but still it is very difficult to halt a bad attack in its tracks.

I was so scared of dying that all of my own advice just evaporated and I just crumbled...

Still, we're all human and can only do our best to combat these things. I'm sure that the contributory factors were the usual : too much stress, not enough sleep and I had even been tempted to have a couple of glasses of wine. You would think that I would learn from my past experiences, but sadly not !! You only have to read this blog to see how many times that I have fallen in to this same trap with the same unhappy consequences.

There is no escpaing the fact that unless you truly change your life to incorporate the good habits to quieten the mind and relax and be good to yourself, then the anxiety issue may well come back to haunt you (well, in my case anyway).

Well, there's no time to sit around feeling sorry for myself - time to move on and get myself back in to top form. I'm off for a run in the country later and no more vino for me tonight !

Take care

Nigel.

- posted by Nigel @ 11:14 AM