Sometimes I miss...

Sometimes I really miss...

Sometimes I really miss going out... I used to go out quite a lot, actually pretty much weekly but those days seem to have gone... When I say go out I should really clarify that i mean go out dressed as a woman... to those reading this on my site that is no suprise, to those on blogger you may now be going whoah! Well, really, just check out my site if you want to read more, expand your mind... or have a laugh.. :)

I don't go out very much anymore and I really miss it... reasons? Well, late nights out in the middle of the week don't mix very well with 5.30 wake up calls! Yuck! But I could still go out at the weekend but then during summer I get paranoid of people seeing me leave my friends house! Now this is weird, Anne, who lets me get changed at her house, doesn't mind if people see me leave her house, but for some inexplicable reason I do!!! So summer worries me and I know it shouldn't.

But if you see my adventures section I haven't even gone out in winter... welll I guess last year I had a good excuse... I was getting ready to get married! Hmm, not sure if I've mentioned that before... I will expand on that sometime. It was great btw. Mind you it really didn't take all winter to get married!

I guess one of the things that I feel guilty about is knowing that my wife really prefers not to see this side of me too much.. I know because we do talk about it occasionally, I don't want you to get the idea that she is totally against this side of me, but I know she doesn't like it so we agreed I would try not to dress in front of her... but here's the problem.... I rarely get the chance to dress at all... and to tell you the truth it's kind of driving me crazy.... Ok so she says I can but I know she doesn't like it so it kind of spoils the whole thing...

Hmmm, I sound like whinging(?) sod! I have a good life, wonderful wife and soon will be a ...erm fath, moth... parent :) But still, I just don't know how to broach the subject again.... I need to dress up sometimes but there is never any time... I can hardly ask her to just go out so I can have som etime alone!

So, why don't I go out and dress, say at the F&H? Dunno, it's just been so long, all the old worries are back, but I read that article and know that I did it once why not again... go on, someone tell me to get my arse in gear and get out again...

Do I write some utter crap in my blog... I need some more wine... shame I've run out!

I think I'm going to rename this to "Becky's Whinge Blog". What do you think?

Down with happiness and fun.... let's just write utter drivel and sound sorry for ourselves ;)

God I need a drink!