Happy New Year.... erm sorry... just realised I hadn't wished you all a Happy New Year... and it's now Easter... damn my naff updating. However, I have had an excuse... "yeah yeah, we've heard it all before" I hear you all cry! No, it really is a great excuse.
Well, if you've been following my life you will know that I split up with my gf last year, after 11 years together and I moved in with a good friend, Sarah. So this is that story... prepare to be bored :)
Well, the house was very spacious and not very well overlooked so freedom was in the air... dress whenever we want and go out dressed, come home dressed, party long and hard, photoshoots the whole thing...
...the thing was I really just didn't want to, you see I felt completely empty inside. It's hard to adjust to a life without someone who has meant the world to you for so long that you can't remember what life was like without them.
Ok, I did dress up a bit and you can see that I did pop out a couple of time to TX and the Fox, but I should have been out every week, but I just didn't have the energy or the need. What did this tell me about myself? You see I think it confirmed that I like to dress when I am happy, to me it's a postive side of who I am, and I was feeling particularly negative about life and "stuff". It also enabled me to examine my life and see where I had been, done and what I wanted from life.
Now, some of you may be saying "What about Sarah?" Well, Sarah was a great friend and housemate, we had a good laugh and she was very good at listening and I think we had a great time...
Now some of the more astute of you may be noticing the prevalent use the "past tense". Ok, we no longer live together... and here's the reason...
"I GOT BACK TOGETHER WITH MY GF" :)Now, I guess some of ou will be sucking in your breath and asking if that was a good idea? Well, I can tell you it was. Whilst apart we both did a hell of a lot of soul searching and we also talked a lot and found that we both wanted each other and also that we could find solutions to our problems.
You see I think we had forgotten how to talk, because it would have been a good idea to do this before we broke up. However, I think we both needed the break to evaluate our lives.
We spent time together and finally I moved back in. We've been back together for a few months now and things are going fantastically. One of my compromises was that I needed to spend more time with her and not on the computer so that's why I'm not online as much as I once was... ho hum, however, I still spend way too much time online so really it was a good idea.
So that's it, my reasons for not being around that much... is it good or what? Well, it is to me :) LIfe is rosy and cheery and Becky is feeling way happy... and we all know what that Becky come out to play more when that happens... erm soon... when I find some spare time...LOL.