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KDOR VISOKO
LETA NIZKO PADE
(ORIGINALLY THE TITLE OF AN ARTICLE PUBLISHED IN DOLENJSKI
LIST, No.46, 15 NOV 2001,
page 24.)
This is an expanded version of the pamphlet entitled “From the Himalaya
to
Moreover, I have included a copy of »KDOR
VISOKO LETA NIZKO PADE«, an article published in DOLENJSKI
LIST in 2001 describing
how my guru turned me into a helpless zombie, and a commentary on that article
written now in 2007, primarily to show how, in 6 years, essentially nothing has
changed, and therefore how real the danger posed by gurus is, as well as to
clarify certain obscure points that were beyond the scope of the article.
As you doubtlessly have already noticed, one of the main new pieces of
information contained in this new version (that was not at all referred to
during Phase 1) is the fact that in terms of pure geography and biology, I am a
Slovenian, born in Novo mesto.
For those of you who met me during Phase 1 and thought me a foreigner,
and of course for those who have known all along that (technically) I am a Slovenian
from NM and have been wondering why I write and speak in English, the bizarre
yet real reason why, approximately 5 years ago, I became unable to process the
Slovenian language, is here clearly explained.
Furthermore, though it is not possible to present all the subtleties of
my relationship with guru Gegen Khyentse without writing an entire book, an
undertaking for which I have neither sufficient talent nor energy, I have for
the first time attempted to present the crucial elements of the history of this
relationship in a chronological order, providing also some detail of the main
turning points of this saga to enable the attentive reader to appraise it
within a relatively short time from at least some of the numerous different
view-points that I myself have been forced to consider it over the past 10
years.
Last but not least, please read this carefully, using a dictionary, as
it was not written for your entertainment but for your education. By reading
about my colossal stupidity and mistakes, you can learn an essential life-skill
that I might call “guru-dodging”, which is not normally taught at schools.
Unfortunately, in describing the extremely subtle mechanisms gurus employ to
enslave people, it is not possible for me to use only simple words, therefore
please use a dictionary.
It is very likely that this booklet will grow; in fact, I am preparing
some material shedding more light on my activities during the earlier years
which resulted in my eventual entrapment, as well as an expanded description of
my tribulations in
THE 2007 COMMENTARY ON
»KDOR VISOKO LETA NIZKO PADE«,
AN
ARTICLE PUBLISHED IN DOLENJSKI LIST
No. 46, 15 NOV 2001, page 24
BACKGROUND: Most of those who know me are surprised to see me in Novo mesto after so many years abroad. The short answer is that nearly a decade of homelessness has left me so completely exhausted that I decided to ask my aunt to give me a small plot of land to live on. While awaiting her decision, I am conducting a public campaign to alert people to the dangers of spirituality AND science, and to the atrocity of the impending age of The Big Brother.
INTRODUCTION: The above article basically describes human powerlessness
under the oppression of certain highly advanced magicians, such as Buddhist
gurus, whose inhuman and un-human character makes them not only utterly appalling
but also extremely dangerous.
However,
prior to actually delving into the subject matter at hand, a word or two should
be set down in order to establish the legitimacy of bringing such an unusual
discourse into the sphere of public discussion and to refute those who say that
the phenomena and arguments presented therein are simply not real.
Most people,
when asked in public whether they believe in para-normal phenomena such as
black magick respond by saying “No”. This, in most cases, is a lie. In my
estimation, 90% of the population believes in the reality of magick,
clairvoyance, exorcism, etc. Though
completely unwillingly, I have found myself in a very good position to explore
not only these obscure phenomena but also people’s attitudes and reactions to
them. Many try to ignore my message altogether, many try to laugh me off in public as a mental case, but the most
common reaction experienced in private by almost everyone deep down is fear. But is not humanly
possible to be afraid of something we don’t believe to be real!
The moment I
draw out my “Beware of Gurus!” banner, and explain to people the full extent of
my experience with magick, the atmosphere suddenly changes into one loaded with
fear and anxiety. This, in a way, is good, because your fear will keep you away
from gurus!
Moreover,
the vast popularity of films such as Lord of the Ring, Matrix, X-files,
Minority Report etc. and the myriad ghost-stories and science-fiction books
sold in millions of copies simply proves the extent to which people deem the
plots and the ideas presented therein to be real and therefore worth watching
or reading. It is a simple psychological truth that adults find improbable (un-real)
plots boring!
But if you
insist that there is no such thing as para-normal phenomena, please allow me to
remind you how science and magic have
already begun to converge:
Just this
morning I read in The Guardian how scientists are already able to read people’s
minds using sophisticated devices:
http://www.guardian.co.uk/science/story/0,,2009217,00.html
… The research breaks controversial new ground in scientists'
ability to probe people's minds and eavesdrop on their thoughts, and raises
serious ethical issues over how brain-reading technology may be used in the
future.
The team used high-resolution brain scans to identify patterns of activity
before translating them into meaningful thoughts, revealing what a person
planned to do in the near future. It is the first time scientists have
succeeded in reading intentions in this way.
Or shall I remind you that “Harry Potter’s invisibility cloak” was invented and manufactured by scientists as long as 4 years ago:

»Japanese
scientist invents 'invisibility coat'«
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/2777111.stm
»Scientists
Aim to Duplicate Harry Potter's Invisibility Cloak«
http://www.livescience.com/scienceoffiction/060525_invisible_cloak.html
Given the fact, as exemplified by my case, that humans can get into very bad magick-related trouble (REGARDLESS of whether magick is true or not), there is yet another, even weightier reason for disseminating this sort of information, namely the fact that positive portrayals of gurus in the media far outnumber the sorely needed information on extremely negative aspects of their activities, and that information which would make people fully comprehend how grave and heavy (Sanskrit गुरु='heavy' (etymol.)) the implications of a relationship with a guru ( गुरु) actually are, is virtually non-existent.
Here is a
concrete example: Google returns half
a million results for “milarepa”, (Milarepa being the most famous
Tibetan yogi who lived around
( http://www.kagyu-asia.com/l_mila_life5a.html
)
And he [Lama Marpa] came out and slapped me again and again.
'When you arrived here you at once gave
me your body, speech, and mind. And now where are you going? Surely you are not
leaving? Since you belong to me, I
could cut you, body, speech, and mind, into a hundred pieces. If in
spite of that you are going away, tell me, why are you taking my flour?'
Speaking in this manner, he kept slapping me.
Hence the need for people like me, to bring the gigantic guru charades
into a proper perspective.
My case clearly shows how REAL magic is: My Lama and his Agents have
repeatedly used their powers of mind-reading, physical invisibility and/or
manifestation, telekinesis and many more, as a means to control and torture
me. But if you think that such magical powers and their abuse do not or should
not concern ordinary people, you are deluding yourself. Very soon
governments and the military will be in possession of just such powers through
advances in SCIENCE! They will of course use these scientific powers as a
means to control and torture the masses.
The Big Brother is rapidly getting BIGGER!
*
* *
Having, thus,
established the legitimacy of this discourse, let me now proceed with the
actual commentary, paragraph by paragraph.
___
As is
obvious from the fact that I am writing in English, my brain is (still) unable
to process Slovenian language, wherefore I have, as strange as it may sound,
had to rely on a translator in writing this commentary. The explanation of the
main cause for this sad state of affairs begins with the commentary on
paragraph 10 and is also mentioned in other parts of this booklet.
A
paragraph-by-paragraph commentary follows:
SUBTITLE:
The subtitle mentions how very few people paid any attention to me as a beggar.
For the first time in my life I observed how relationships between two or more
people are essentially a business affair: Most people will only socialise with
those from whom they can derive some benefit or profit. So long as a person has
money, social standing, a cheerful character etc. many people will want to be
his/her friend. But as soon as this person loses the money, the status, and the
cheerfulness, those same people will attempt to avoid him/her at all costs. To
speak to such a loser, or even actively help him, is to most people quite
unthinkable. “Let the Government take
care of him!” But of course the government never does.
I did not
take this experience very personally; rather I was saddened on behalf of these
mean people, thinking that it must be very difficult to live with oneself when one is so small-minded.
Apart from
the mean and small-minded, there were also the outright bizarre and
unfathomable. On one occasion, Franci Koncilija, the then mayor of Novo mesto,
to whom I am related by blood, walked up to me, greeted me jauntily, shook my
hand, looked me into the eye far more coolly than I would have cared for, and
immediately walked away without saying another word, and of course without
giving me any money. I am not implying that relatives should help each other
simply because they are related, however mayors not doing anything about their
distressed citizenry is a different matter altogether.
Six years
passed and, after having evolved into a far more experienced beggar, I found
myself begging in Novo mesto again in JAN 2007. I am sorry to say that compared
with other towns around the world the people of Novo mesto struck me as nearly
sub-human – except for the “bizarre and unfathomable” section of the public,
many of whom, I am afraid, seem to be super-human in a very negative way.
Franci
Koncilija, undoubtedly guided by the providence of his all-mighty G*d, unmistakably
tracked me down on this occasion too, ridiculed me for my miserable situation
and generally made small talk for an unduly long time (“unduly” given the fact
that yet again he did not give me even a cent to compensate me for the mental
suffering caused by his presence). As you may know, his wife committed suicide in 2003;
I would kill myself, too, if I had to live with him!
Bad town.
PARAGRAPH 1:
It has been my habit for many years now to change my name according to the
circumstances, and especially to reflect (a change in )
my mental state. I therefore referred to myself as “Algae” to emphasise the
degree to which they had de-humanised me.
At the end
of the paragraph there is a reference to “a 10-year period”; what is meant is
the time between 1991, when I first became interested in gurus, and 2001, when
for the very first time I realised the monstrosity of my guru and the depth of
the quagmire I was drowning in.
On the other
hand, the 10-year period referred to in my present campaign began in 1997 when
I plunged head-long into a living hell after giving my soul to Guru Gegen
Khyentse, and has, obviously, lasted up to the present of 2007.
PARAGRAPH 2
refers to my so-called mother, the notorious Anica. First and foremost, the
word “mother” here is not appropriate because to me, she has never felt like
one, nor has she ever filled her role as a mother. My attitude towards her has
spanned indifference, irritation, and hatred, and my perception of her has been
either as of one who does not quite belong in my life or as of one who is my de
facto enemy. It is not so rare for people to find it difficult to get along
with their nearest of kin, and to feel that they are not receiving the sort of
treatment from them that one might expect. The reasons for this can sometimes
be put down to something as trivial and manageable as differences in
temperament coupled with a lack of tolerance, but are in more serious cases
traceable to severe antagonism and clashes in previous lifetimes with a “sequel”
unfolding in this life. In my case, in addition to both of the above reasons,
there has been a third, even graver cause, which I shall explain in the
commentary on paragraph 10.
There are,
however, a few very important facts to be touched upon at this point to
facilitate readers’ comprehension. Anica’s statement that “she hopes he will be
able to get over the trauma of his failure” is a very good starting point.
I find it
very hard to believe even for a second that she meant this sincerely because
she had, ever since her fateful encounter with Chinese energy healer Wang
AiPing in the early 1990’s, been in constant touch with assorted psychics (agents)
and so completely mentally controlled by them that she had conducted all her
affairs, including her “handling” of me, her own son, entirely in accordance
with their “suggestions”. Thus, although she does not seem to be an agent
herself, she has been blindly following interpretations of reality suggested
by and obeying instructions coming from all the numerous agents
in her orbit, who of course telepathically receive commands directly from my
guru. In effect, expecting my mother to help me in any way would be tantamount to
going straight back to my guru and asking him to “please torture me some more!”
There is
another, more mundane, possible interpretation of her actions. Because of Wang
AiPing Anica had got hit by New Age and the rest of the spiritual craze at
about the same time as myself, around 1991, but in a
far more self-centred way than myself. Her craving for status, power and
influence had made her, to most people’s minds, intolerably opinionated and
over-bearing. She had tended to believe that travelling to Tibet would be good
for me, and when I had returned from my first journey temporarily completely
transformed (in a very positive way), had become convinced that I would develop
into some great spiritual personage, which of course would greatly boost her
own prestige, wherefore she continued to financially and morally support my
travels in the East.
However, with
passage of time I had begun to exhibit symptoms of not being “quite on the
right path”, which predictably had greatly dampened her enthusiasm, and when,
barely two months after the publication of “KDOR VISOKO LETA NIZKO PADE” it
became evident that I would never turn into a “success story”, she
unceremoniously kicked me out of her apartment.
It is always
very difficult to judge and understand other people’s motivations (unless one
is clairvoyant), but I am quite convinced that in Anica’s case it was an odd
mixture of some or all the factors and parameters mentioned above that led her
to treat me in such a wicked way.
As for my
father, who had been wholly incapable of harming me thanks to his good, sane
nature and unwillingness to trust anything of a spiritualistic character, I
believe that his premature death in 2000, occurring precisely at the juncture
when I most needed him, had actually been precipitated by my guru’s magical
means, and possibly with a little help from Anica, too. (Visit http://www.american-buddha.com/dalai.avalok.2.htm
to read about how lamas kill people with magic. The most relevant excerpts can
be found in this booklet, too. For quick reference, I pasted the juiciest paragraph from the above site at the bottom of this page.)
PARAGRAPH 3: Although I have no idea what sort of a person Evald Flisar is, nor what his
motives were in writing ČAROVNIKOV VAJENEC,
I have been wont to curse him quietly in my mind...
(The book is known in the Anglo-Saxon world as THE SORCERER'S APPRENTICE, or
"Going away with the wild tiger".)
Without elaborating on how decisive a role different types of information
can play in the life of a young, impressionable person, I would only like to say that
I now have strong reasons to believe the man who first recommended me to read Flisar's
book to have been an agent.
Also in paragraph 3, I speak of “other students being far more talented than me”, which was a
vague way of referring to clairvoyance, a phenomenon I was reluctant to discuss
in public back in 2001. I had begun to notice that many of the disciples who
ostensibly were at the same stage as myself had in fact been possessed of very
advanced abilities to read minds or foretell future, and to memorise vast
amounts of information by heart. I had naturally found it very hard to
reconcile their excessive praise of my “special qualities” with the obvious
absence of all and any such qualities on my part, and eventually came to the
conclusion that the gurus were having a gigantic laugh at my expense by playing
an outrageous practical joke on me.
Also
mentioned are “prophecies”, an instrument of psychological manipulation and
torture greatly popular with gurus, which has quite unsparingly been used on me
as well. They would predict something mundane and trivial, or something spiritually
grand and noble; something very desirable or something utterly dreadful; something
very believable or something totally off-the-wall and far-fetched, but whatever
they may prophesy, they always make sure that the majority of the prophecies eventually
come true so as to show off their unchallengeable power and ability to
control and manipulate all psychic and material phenomena within the Universe,
and to instil fear and agony and despair
in their victims.
*
* *
In 1999 I
encountered two members of the Slovenian Buddhist Group, Alex and Stefan, in
One day we
were talking about this and that in a friendly, relaxed manner, which made me
all the more flabbergasted when she suddenly dropped her mask for a few seconds
to look deep into my eyes and say: “You hate me so much because I am
harassing you, I know. Believe me, I am going to torment you even more, and for
a long time, so that you will hate me even more, much more than now!”
Then she continued with our previous subject as if nothing had happened.
What made
matters very grave indeed was the fact that although she had employed the first
person singular “I”, the intended meaning was the first person plural “We”,
meaning all the gurus and agents I’d come into contact with… and for a long,
long, time!
Well, here
was a prophecy, and oh, how excruciatingly true it has become!
PARAGRAPH 4 refers
to events which chronologically preceded the situation described in P. 3 and touches
upon the main turning point, namely September of 1997 when I made the deadly
mistake (not explicitly mentioned in the article) of giving my soul to the
Guru, which was just a few days before he sealed my fate by saying: “You can
say goodbye to happiness now!” The dangers of relinquishing one’s soul to a
guru are described in greater detail elsewhere in this booklet.
A few days
after these events the Guru started to formally instruct me in “Prostrations”
the first of a set of “Tantric Preliminaries” to be practiced and completed by
anyone wishing to become a Tantric practitioner. “The 100,000 Prostrations” is
a physically and mentally demanding practice typically to be performed over a
period of one or more months. It is also know as “Taking Refuge” because the physical prostrations are to be accompanied
by continuous mental action of recognising and going to the Buddha as the
ultimate deliverer from the sufferings of Samsara. This mental action itself is
actually the hardest part because it involves a continuous, vivid, and very
elaborate visualisation (=mental creation) of an “ideal world” with a deity
representing the Enlightened Mind at its centre. (In simple terms it could be
said that this is an all-out exercise in what is now known in the West as
Positive Thinking.) Once I had received the complete explanation of the Tibetan
text and understood how exactly I ought to practice, the Lama told me to
retreat to my room and perform the practice over a period of 30 days.
Though I suffered from severe lack of sleep I was generally doing fine
for the first 20 days. Then I suddenly noticed that I was no longer able to
control my mind and that the heavenly environment I had been generating in my
mind began to deteriorate rapidly. Deteriorate here is a euphemism; it
was as if the luminous fabric of my mentally generated ideal world had begun to
crack and I found myself helplessly watching Demonic blackness seep through,
polluting everything it touched; the benevolent deities floating about began to
look like demons from Hell, and the whole picture eventually became so scary
that I no longer dared evoke it, which in effect brought my practice to a
complete stand-still. At the same time, my body did not seem to obey me any
more, so instead of going straight to my Lama for consultation, I remained
locked in the room for 10 days in a hazy, coma-like state, doing nothing. When
I eventually recovered from this I attempted to complete the remaining 10 days
of practice, which, for lack of self-confidence and concentration, proved to be
a gruesome task, and I took 20 days to finish.
When I eventually kneeled down before the Lama to offer him, as is
traditionally done, “the fruit of my practice”, he was far from glad. He curtly
asked: ”How many days was this supposed to last?”
“30 days,” I replied. I considered his next question: “And how long
did you spend doing it?” to be rhetorical and deemed it wiser not to make
any sound… He cut through the heavy silence by making a small, yet dreadful
gesture indicating that he did not accept my offering.
I should have known there and then that the time to “say
goodbye to happiness” had just arrived…
* * *
At the time I had absolutely no idea what had caused me to fail so
pathetically, and it took me many years to discover a sinister dark entity that
had all along been controlling my actions by controlling my thoughts without me
being aware of it! I mention this because the causes of my disastrous relations
with my mother, my inability to speak Slovenian, and many other horrors, can be
traced directly to this dark entity… to be revealed in comm. on paragraph 10.
PARAGRAPH 5:
The “tragic events of
In the
spring of 1999, while living in
In the
summer of 1999, I received news that my father had become very ill a few months
before, which became a source of great distress for me. I was not merely
worried that I might never see him again, but, in accordance with my world-view
comprised, among other things, of belief in karma and reincarnation, also
worried that he might not take a good future rebirth because of his general
ignorance of spiritual matters and especially owing to brain damage that was
part of his illness.
Hence,
despite the fact that lamas in general did not seem to be willing to teach me
anything useful, I became doubly motivated to gain some insight into spiritual
matters, and especially eager to develop “super-natural” powers which would
enable me to guide my father’s soul toward a fortunate future re-birth. This
new determination however soon became a source of even more suffering as lamas
continued to be unhelpful or even obstructive, and meditation on my own failed
to produce any results, all of which naturally resulted in unspeakable
frustration, which, in turn, made the pain in my heart, and thereby my general
debility, an even worse problem than before.
My father’s
eventual death in spring of 2000 was an enormous loss because he might have
been the only person in the world who had ever really liked me, and It also
brought in its wake a terrible sense of self-disappointment which, compounded
by the rest of the harrowing circumstances I was drowning in at the time
(agents such as Stefan were again crawling all over me), produced a state of
shock that incapacitated me completely for a few weeks and eventually made me
“resign from my position of a Spiritual Practitioner”.
PARAGRAPH 6:
Further elucidation of methods of psychological torture can be found in the
letter associated with “The Declaration of War on Gegen Khyentse”.
PARAGRAPH
7: This, of course, was just after my father
died.
PARAGRAPH 8:
Again, please refer to the letter associated with “The Declaration of War on
Gegen Khyentse” to learn how Gegen Khyentse kept materialising in front of me
and using his magick to manipulate my physical environment even in Japan, and
how his agents kept stealing all my relationship-slots,
thereby preventing me from accomplishing anything.
* * *
By the time
Anica threw me out of her house two months after the publication of this article (JAN 2002),
it had become clear that the only thing left for me to do was to challenge my
Guru. Since I now had nowhere to live anyway, I decided to use part of the
money I had left from the sale of property inherited from my father to fly to
India, and personally face Gegen Khyentse, or his representatives, in Manali. What happened thereupon is also briefly described
in “The Declaration”.
* * *
Let me also
point out how bad the whole affair has been for me in purely financial terms:
the 6000 USD mentioned in the article was about 1/3 of the money I had derived
from the sale of the property inherited from my father, and I was reduced by my
guru to wasting it all in Japan in a period of just one year (roughly summer
2000—summer 2001). (The property in question was one entire floor in our
3-storeyed house which I had decided to sell because I had found it unthinkable
to ever live anywhere near Anica.)
Having
decided in JAN 2002 to tackle the Guru, I took the remaining 12000 USD, went to
Manali to issue an Ultimatum to Gegen Khyentse / his representatives, and,
hoping that my life might eventually improve owing to the fact that I neither
got killed in Manali nor did they seem to affect me with magick any more,
invested the greater part of my money into establishing myself in Japan. But as
you know, after a short respite the gurus and agents re-emerged, and created a
state of affairs that was tantamount to throwing my money out of the window.
* * *
Several
suicide attempts followed, but I usually performed them in a quasi-scientific
way that allowed me to gain some insight into the nature of mind; I eventually
realised that physical death unfortunately is not the end, and tried to come to
terms with staying alive.
PARAGRAPH 9
seems to be more or less self-explanatory. You merely need to try to imagine for a
minute being in this sort of predicament every day of your life to grasp the
importance of staying away from gurus!
PARAGRAPH 10
contains some of the most poignant statements and facts:
Firstly, it
is easy enough to understand why geography plays such a minor role: magical
forces know no boundaries. However, the reason I emphasise this point so much
is to make people aware that sometimes the gurus can be found in the same town,
on your own street, or even in your own house. Sad but true.
* * *
Secondly,
the nauseating complexity of my life-story derives largely from the uncertainty
as to the validity of the hypothesis that all my sufferings after 1997 are
an outcome of my own error (namely, the failure to complete prostrations in 30
days), while the many intricacies which need to be cognised and considered
in evaluating this hypothesis are in fact the most crucial elements of the
whole saga, carrying enormous psychological and metaphysical implications and mind-blowing
consequences for our planet as a whole and especially for anyone who might find
him/herself in the same situation.
But since
philosophical discussions are beyond the scope of this piece of writing, I
shall not attempt to present any arguments in favour of or against the
above-mentioned hypothesis, and rather continue the disclosure of the “dark entity” I first alluded to in the comm. on
paragraph 4 above.
After my father’s death I gradually became aware, in a very, very vague,
almost subconscious way, of there being something OTHER than me inside of me. It was a certain blackness… When I came to
During our first séance, which was, in formal terms, a guided
conversation aimed at exposing certain obscure areas of my subconscious, I
suddenly became very physically ill; I fell from the chair on the floor and
became aware of – seeing, in fact, in the form of “a subtle black” – an evil
spirit permeating my body and soul. I felt totally overpowered and unable to do
anything about it, though I wished strongly that I could somehow separate
myself from it.
During the second séance I again had a strong reaction, this time not merely
falling from but actually getting thrown out of the chair by a hidden force;
landing paralysed on the floor I heard the shaman making strange sounds with
his lips, as if sucking something away from me, and then gradually started
feeling better – only slightly
better, to be precise.
The shaman said something to the effect that I was now free, implying
that he had removed the demon, and adding that the pain in my heart would
subside only gradually, over a period of one year. In the retrospective, it is
clear that the fact that the improvement was so minute and that the pain was
not removed more or less instantly indicated that a genuine exorcism had not taken place and that he was lying.
A few years later I found first-hand
proof that the demon – or even several demons! – were still inside of me.
Indeed, within weeks it became clear that the Guru was still controlling
my life, which made it all the more likely that the Devil was still inside – I
say this because I have always found it difficult to distinguish between the
“external” Guru and the “internal” Demon; they seem to be inextricably
connected, acting in unison. And I am certain that the Guru is making damn’ sure that the
Demon stays inside of me – forever?
(The fact that I was fooled by a couple of blighters I had been
introduced to by Anica of course made me extremely angry with her, and the
relations deteriorated further.)
It was this Daemon – Devil – Satan – Energy
Parasite – Alien -- whatever we call it, as my “second” mind that had caused me
to fail so pathetically during the “Prostrations” by confusing my main, sane,
good mind, and this is precisely why I have always found it hard to blame
myself for the failure. (But as
years have shown, the Universe has never accepted these facts as an excuse.)
I should also mention that despite not having accepted the “fruit of my
practice” of Prostrations, Gegen had given me instructions for the second stage
of my Preliminaries, called “Purification”, of which I only had enough time to
complete one-half (in DEC 1997) owing to complications with my Indian visa.
Just before departing for
He had also intentionally confused me during the 1st half of
the practice back in India by giving me contradictory instructions, and then
pretending he had not, all of which in conjunction with the interference of a
myriad agents circling around me and especially the Devil inside of me caused
me to start believing that it was all just a giant, purposeless hoax, and
abandoned all intentions to ever complete the 2nd half.
Such developments, or rather non-developments, eventually made me go all
the way to Manali and issue an Ultimatum to my oppressors in JAN 2002.
When I eventually returned to Slovenia in 2005, (having accomplished
nothing), I simply continued to speak in English as my mouth refused to
co-operate in the articulation of words belonging to Slovenian, and this worked
fine since such a large portion of the population are proficient in English.
Soon, however, I began to experience difficulties with persons whom I
encountered in their official capacity; many of them, having seen my Slovenian
passport etc., presumed that I must have knowledge of the language and,
sometimes outraged, immediately switched to Slovenian, accusing me of playing a
joke on them. This, of course, was not the case.
I made an effort to retrieve my Slovenian vocabulary, but to no avail.
My “Slovenian Language Module” was out of order. I realised that the daemon
inside me was blocking it.
Problems grew worse: whenever people refused to believe that I was
simply not in control in terms of the language, and obstinately and even
somewhat aggressively continued to speak Slovenian “to my face”, I quickly felt
myself grow confused and unwell as their attitude amplified the pain in my
heart and somehow made my daemon-warped mind to become very angry with them.
I remember having visited ZZZS one day to apply for a new Health Card.
The official there was generally quite helpful and kind, but at one point
started to reproach me for speaking only in English, suggesting that we switch
to Slovenian. I suddenly heard myself saying: “If you dare to speak to me in
Slovenian, I will kill you.” Utterly bewildered and ashamed of these words, I
attempted to qualify my utterance, but only to hear myself come up with
something even worse: “…just like I want to kill my mother!” - Implying that I
– or the demon? – hated the language because it was the language of Anica.
Cutting a long story short, let me mention only very briefly here that
quite possibly, the main cause of my problems with her is the fact that the
daemon entered my stream-of-consciousness at the time of conception – from
within her ovary!
The above incidents clearly
show how demonic possession can cause an otherwise rational and suave person to
act in very irrational and belligerent ways. According to some "professional"
exorcists, more than 50% of people carry inside of them a covert invader of
some sort!
* * *
The third
important point of this paragraph is that back in 2001, I was not in the mood
to get involved in any further discussions or campaigns. My attitude changed
drastically after my final realisation in 2004 that the gurus had not, nor ever
would, disappear from my life, whereupon I resolved to start exposing them
individually, by name, and initially did that in front of a temple in Hong Kong
(see LEAFLET “Beware of spiritual harassment”); this attitude was further
fortified in NOV 2006 when I found myself so completely stymied that there was
simply nothing left to do but to start using the ample time supplied by not
having anything to do for the purpose of exposing the truth that a guru can
get you into a state of not having anything to do – the only remaining
thing being a continuous perception of
endless, intense, brain-sizzling boredom!
SIGNATURE: There are some very interesting things I
could mention regarding Mr. M. Markelj as well, but perhaps in a later version…
[ END OF THE COMMENTARY ON »KDOR VISOKO LETA NIZKO PADE« ]
BEYOND MAGIC: Just as nuclear
science was abused in the 1940's to create and use A-bombs, recent advancements
in science have already started getting abused for the purpose of mass-control and
exploitation of the human population, so the
negative experiences of mind-reading,
physical invisibility/manifestation, telekinesis and even demonic
possession, which hitherto were limited to a
circle of practicing magicians and their victims, may very soon cross over into
the domain of
Everyman. Please ponder what is to be done
with regards to evil-minded practitioners
and users of SCIENCE and their scientific powers!
Unless we stop The Big
Brother now, we are done for! Make no mistake: our governments and the military
are no different from Gurus - Expect no
mercy!
Please take a close look at the
“people” who rule your town, your country, and your planet, and give SERIOUS
thought to how far you are going to ALLOW them to go in controlling and
exploiting you! Your worst nightmare is about to become reality, so you’d better
wake up!
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Date: |
Mon, 6 Dec 2004
13:53:22 +0900 (JST) |
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From: |
"Mike" <dancegalop AT yahoo.co.jp> |
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Subject: |
Letters to the
Dalai Lama and Gegen Khyentse |
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To: |
"Office of
H.H. the Dalai Lama" <ohhdl AT vsnl.com> |
Mr.
Khuntsok Gyaltsen,
I have had
enough of your games. It is no use to feign "surprise" any more, like
you did in the case of Mr. Jangchup.
I will
shortly be sending you two important letters in two separate E-mails:
1 An
Ultimatum to the 14th Dalai Lama, Tenzin Gyatso
Please
forward both letters both to the Dalai Lama and to Mr. Se Rinpoche at Apho
Rinpoche's monastery in Manali, as I do not have their E-mail addresses.
I
should like to send these letters directly to the concerned parties by
registered post, however, owing to your meddling with my life I do now not have
enough money even for stamps.
Mike.
---
"Office of H.H. the Dalai Lama"
> Dear Mike, > > I am sorry to learn
about your business experience > with Mr. Jangchup. I am > surprised
because Jangchup is normally a honest and > nice person. However, I >
will talk with Jangchup when I see him and will get > back to you. > >
All the best, >
>
Khuntsok Gyaltsen
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Date: |
Mon, 6 Dec 2004
13:53:37 +0900 (JST) |
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From: |
"Mike" <dancegalop AT yahoo.co.jp> |
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Subject: |
An Ultimatum to
the 14th Dalai Lama, Tenzin Gyatso |
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To: |
"Office of
H.H. the Dalai Lama" <ohhdl AT vsnl.com> |
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CC: |
Info AT tibet.com |
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An
Ultimatum to The 14th Dalai Lama, Tenzin Gyatso.
------------------------------------------------------------------------
Mr.
Tenzin Gyatso,
I am
sick at heart and saddened that matters should have come to such a pass.
I, a
man who has never aspired to fame and has always preferred anonymity, am now
forced to make myself infamous through this sort of correspondence.
As you
are aware, it has now been ten years since I met Mr. Gegen Khyentse.
It has
now been five years since I decided to abandon my "spiritual practice"
under Mr. Khyentse's "spiritual guidance", and to start a new,
secular life away from the Himalayas and outside of the Buddhist
"spiritual" sphere.
You are
also aware that Mr. Khyentse did neither regard nor respect my decision, and
has, through black magick, consistently and continuously interfered with my
life in an atrocious way.
As an
integral part of my endeavour to rid myself of his vicious torture and
continuous interference in my life I have decided to address with this issue
not only Khyentse himself but also you as the head of Tibetan Buddhist clergy.
The
present letter is similar in nature to one of the letters sent to the Pope by
Mrs. Maria Ferrara Pema, a victim of a Catholic black magician, which can be
viewed at http://www.onlyonetruth.com/possession.htm .