Our Story starts on a sunny afternoon. Michael and I walked down the isle as newly weds, eager to start a family. We knew it wouldn't be easy, but we where ready to accept the responsibility with open hearts. Time had started to pass and before we knew it, 18 months had passed and still no baby. I knew something was wrong and when we finally got good enough insurance, I went to the doctors. After months of testing. I was diagnosed with a ovarian disorder that could be treated with medication. With each round of the fertility drug clomid, came more testing followed by more test and false hope. We where beginning to think that being parent was a dream and i was ready to give up, even though it was the first round of treatment. By this time I had gone to the doctor at least once a month for 12 more months bring the total now to 2 1/2 years of wanting to start are family. Hope was fading. With each new dose of treatment brought more testing, and waiting. When the call came in again that the medication had failed again. I sat alone debating if I could go though my next appointment. I just prayed to god for strength and wisdom on what to do At this point i didn't want to go imagine my life with no children, but was willing to accept my fate as it was being handed down. Then something magical happend. I start to feel something inside of me. I figured it was my body getting ready for the new round of treatment. I had to take medication just to have my periods. I thought maybe my body was trying to heal with all the medication I was taking. The second of june I was 2 days late. But this wasn't unusual for me, as for regularity being part of the problem. But the problem presisted. I called my mother for advice. As I explained my symptoms she listened and then told me to get a pregnancy test. I sat and argued with her the doctor had just told me a week ago that the medication failed and the ahd wanted to up the level. But I listened. I went to the store and bought a box that had two test. I came home and took the 1st test I sat in the bathroom and waited for what seemed like hours. Finally i picked it up and it was positive. I couldn't believe my eyes so I took the second and it was also positive. Still in total disbelief I called my mom again and this time she urged my to goto the hospital because of the pain I was in. I called my husband and he came home and we went. They said congratulations you are and everything was fine it was just the baby growing. The next 7 months would be long and hard I had a old back injury I had to goto therepy for it lasted for month and by now it was almost christmas time we where really exited and looking forward to the birth or baby we found out it was a girl at this time so we got everything ready to bring her home in couple weeks. All that was left where a final touch to make everything ready our nursery for are newest addition. Therepy was over I tried to fight the pain 7 week went by and the pain got greater and greater and she was moving less and less we expressed are concerns at the doctors office and they said she is fine and healthy. I went home not total convinced. I had to trust the doctor day went by and January 13 I fell so we went to the doctors and monitored my baby and said everything was fine the day past and saturday came I felt real sick so I lay down at 7 pm to rest to goto work. I placed my hand on my stomach and whispered soft lulibies to my daughter. I felt to kicks. I was thankful she moved It had been over 24 hours since I felt her move. I know those last moments where my daughter was my daughters way of making peace and saying goodbye. I'll never forget that night that my beautiful baby uttered her silent "I Love you mommy" before making her journey to heaven. My fever got worse I called the doctor sunday and he said to goto the hospital by then the pain had stopped and some of the fear. the nurse hooked up the monitor but there was no heartbeat. Two doctors came in and confirmed it. "I am sorry there is no heartbeat Mrs Richman your baby has died" Those word rang though my ears as saw my husband Michael breakdown in total heartbreak and tears flowed from my cheeks.
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