Miyamoto's doom

part 2


I walked up to my mother and embraced her. "Hiya mom!" I said and gazed into
her blue-green eyes.

"Hi Jess, let's go home kay? I have something to tell you."

I'd seen this look on her face many times before and I already knew what she
was going to say.

I stopped her. "You're going away again, aren't you?"

Her face fell. "I'm afraid so sweetie." she said in a broken voice.

Tears invaded my eyes as I thought of her leaving leaving me again, I knew
she had no choice--she had to do it for me. We have very little money and she
has to stay in Team Rocket, but that's not all. I just found out that if she
refuses...she'll be killed, killed by the organisation she works for, it's so
unfair.

Nothing in this world is fair, the people in this village hate her for what
she does, but they don't understand, they critisize, but they don't know
anything--and I can't tell them why she does it, I can't even tell Jim or Julia,
because I'm afraid that something will happen to them, to this village, if I
do. I mean--if they have no problem in killing my mother, what's going to
stop them from doing something like that to the Crockets? I know they have no
reason in doing that, it'd be pointless and they would cause to much
commotion and they don't want that to happen, they don't want to be in the
centre of the stage, but it's just that....I'm afraid--afraid that someone
will come and take everything I love away from me. I don't know how I would
cope if that would really happen, they're like family to me--and they don't
care that I'm poor, they don't care that my hair is all dirty and messed up
and my clothes are all torn apart, they don't care about any of that--they
just care about me. They don't care about my looks, they care about my soul.
That's what love's all about, love comes from the heart....not the eyes.

They even called me beautiful.

I let the tears fall freely from my eyes and I leaned against a big cherry
tree. Miyamoto approached me and softly layed her hand on my shoulder. I
looked at her through my tears and tried to speak, but the only sound that
escaped my throat was another sob. She embraced me and we both sat down under
the tree, in the cool shadow.

"Why exactly do you have to go mommy?" I asked when I was finally able to
speak again--I already knew the answer.

"I told you before Jess, if I go and complete this mission we'll finally be
able to eat real food again and without asking the neighboors for it! I'll
get lots of money and then we can go on vacation again too"

"But I don't want real food that bad mommy, I want you to stay here with me
and besides--we have snow for food--that's good too!"

"But that doesn't really count for food Jess--and there isn't always snow, we
may live next to those snowy mountains, but it only snows during the winter
right? And most of all ....I want you to have some decent food for once, you
deserve it so much" she began to cry too and I couldn't help but feel
miserable for the both of us.

"And I can't give you all that...I'm so sorry, I can't do anything
right..that's why your father left me...'cause I always screwed things up and
blew it in his face, I'm so sorry Jessie" she sobbed.

"It isn't your fault mommy," I replied. "Sometimes people make mistakes, I do
too y'know?"

More tears began streaming down her face and I gently brushed them away.

"Jess..," she said with a hint of guilt in her voice. "I haven't been
completely honest with you and I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner but..I have
to tell you now," she sighed and hung her head. "I'm not doing this just
because of you Jess, if I say no to my boss, she'll let my partners kill me"

"I know mommy"

"WHAT?!" she couldn't believe this. "How did you find out? And if you knew it
all along...oh Jess, I was so afraid you wouldn't love me anymore if I told
you, that you would think that I only did this because of me"

I shook my head. "No, I wouldn't love you any less because of that, because I
know you have no choice--and I know you are doing this for me too--and I
found a letter from your boss saying that if you weren't cooperative they'd
kill you. So that's how I found out, but I still love you mommy" I said
reasuringly.

"Thanks sweetie" she said and embraced me once more. "That means so much to
me"


~~To be continued~~